Aaron's 5th bday at the Memorial

It was a bit creepy but we had a b-day party at the Memorial beside dear Aaron's grave. Well. it's just a nice gathering for a boy we once loved and have lost. He could've been 5 today ( a sad fact) and he really was excited about his coming b-day. I guess, he was there, it was very windy. Balloons are scampering off, retrieved many times by Khyle and cuz Justin. I did not take pics, I have avoided taking one since the "crisis in pics" where we noticed slanting rays of light from heaven in our x-mas party pics. I leave the pic taking to the parents Weng and Nors. It was my first time to attend such Memorial party. Food was good, the relatives are all there plus all the 4 senseis with me ( they came from my place, we we're watching Coffee Prince, it's lika a holiday reunion for us, just kinda a bit sad. Malen came too for a short while and we had our yearly exchange gifts) and people from school, Laurenz and fam, Shiela and fam, Mrs Se and Rean, Mira and fam, Alvin and fam, Kevin and sis, Ate Lits and Mang Boy, whose foods was suddenly blown away to Aaron's grave. Nilaro siya ni Aaron siguro. :) I was with Mira, for a while I chatted with Tita Tessie. Nora cried of course at Prayer time and Weng videotaped us. I gave Aaron a Mickey Mouse pop-up card with a Mickey Mouse silver charm. I think Weng kept it. T Others gave flowers but I gave something else, something cute for a kid. Mira and I had no time to invite this cute dead guy in his sosi burial house that looks like a bank, that's what we jokingly say. He was a memorial neighbor of Aaron and Tito Chris and he died young from sickness, had a cute pic there, and he was the mayor's nephew. The cake was Mickey and friends, of course and had Aaron been alive, it would've been a nice party. I guess I'm now at peace with the fact that he's no longer with us and I know he's ok (with the dream and the x-mas simbang gabi head shadow) but at times, this kid scares me a bit at night. Or maybe I'm just insomniac. Oh, but he's a good kid. He will always be in our hearts and minds.
After the party, we went back to gsm. T. Joy and Cor we're shouting coz they claimed that their empty room (Aaron's room) suddenly opened its to windows, as if to welcome them. Yeah, that room is kinda creepy but I stayed there alone at lunch and no one bothers me. I guess, they can't scare me hehehe. Being scared is only in the mind. There is life after death. :) We have a little angel now.

Slapshocking yearender gig

Dec 29'07
It was truly a slapshocking yearender gig under the stars and the fireworks display na "surprise" daw ni Kuya Jamir. I met Ann and so I was with her and seated near a new band. There are 11 unknown bands there, slappy is the last band. Recollection tour nila Kuya Jamir. It was the last gig for Slapshock in '07 and what a fitting yearender. I've only seen 2 bands in dec, 6 cyclemind and slappy. I've always been a slappy fan and woudn't miss this for anything. You woudn't believe the kids here! All the slammin' and headbangin' I was dancing and singing too hehehe and jumping ala Kuya Jamir. I'm at the front rows syemps beside the guard. I love the gig, bitin sa songs! Ann got to embrace Jamir onstage. That girl is a veteran rakista! But she loves Miggy of Chicosci the most. I love Bamboo, Callalily, Slappy and Cueshe. After the gig, Kuya Jamir signed my brown Jap bag. We bid him bye on his car and then we parted ways, Ann and I. Sayang, no pic with Kuya Jamir. Again!!! :( As I got home, twas before midnight, of course I asked Aaron not to scare me at the gate and I didn't felt scared at all. He's a good kid anyway. After the gig, I got blisters on my feet so I can't walk the next day and sold-out lahat ng Recollection new album ng Slapshock. :( bummer! I didn't eat (just a sandwich) in the gig, no water either but we survived this slapshockin' yearender! :)

Merry-licious bee but still blue x-mas

We had our x-mas party on gakko grounds. I'm sure Aaron was just around, coz Jollibee came by. We had a Jollibee party. Everyone was happy. I gave out 50 gifts, I'm like a Santa. I got some gifts too. Na-sad lang kami when Nora came and she was crying at the gate. She gave us food and she left. I was almost crying but I coudn't cry in public. The x-mas bonus and pay was good, but we remember how sad it is for Nora and some starmoms also cried. Anyways, this naughty butterfly followed us to Aaron's resting place. We gave him his Jollibee fries and M&M's with Mickey sticker. Nora already gave a donut and pizza slice. I never went to cemeteries but for Aaron, I make an exception. I always avoid funerals and cemeteries. I hate that sad feeling, the bad chi. Now, I have to visit Aaron once in a while. I will give Nora Aaron's red parol. I already gave her Aaron's UN button, his pencil and that Embraced.. book. I hope and I pray we can all move on with Aaron's death. How sad this Christmas...I also miss lolo and some friends. I just love attending the Simbang Gabi on the eve. Next year, I hope will be better.

Harold and Aaron, a celebration of life and death

In the AM, we we're there for the christening or baptism of Harold, Ate Esmi's son. all the sensei were there, T. Jov and the kids. We had a trip to the fields din. Then in the PM, we attended the burial of Aaron. It was so sad. Nora was so insanely depressed and overly crying. We coudn't look at her. Weng was crying too but men don't cry that easily. I told he could just make another son, I'm so bad, hehe. But I know, Aaron is irreplaceable. Naiwan pa nga niya ang 3 "viudas" na mga kids din: Kianna, Vian and Abhie. Aaron was buried on top of his grandpa, Tito Chris. We will will this kid so much. Mira was with me and lenlen. Again, you wanted to find some real answers why this happened and there were just very limited answers, mostly guesswork. Except after I read this book, Embraced by the light, I began to understand this life after death. It made me feel a lot better. I passed that book to Nora and Weng. I guess that was Betty Eadie's mission in life. For grieving people to move on.
AAnyways, in the next few days, Aaron was a ghost in our gakko but we we're not afraid at all. We couldn't see his spirit but we can feel his presence. Pumapasok pa talaga siya. He really loves our gakko and T. Joy. So it's just common for all of us to ask "Pumasok ba?" Sometimes, I miss him if he doesn't visit us. Sometimes, Aaron was a naughty butterfly. I even thought, he would be a naughty angel and he'll just make kalabit to me again. But I don't dream of him pa eh. I know he'll be happy in heaven once he has comforted all of us na. :)

Aaron Emmanuel, a short life

This is the saddest day of our life. Aaron, our cute neighborhood baby and apple of our eyes died. It was so sudden, no one expected it. And we couldn't do anything about it. He died very early in the am, 5:50 am. He should've been in our gakko had he recovered. There was no official cause of death as Nora the mom didn't have an autopsy on him. He just had an asthma and he choked on a phlegm, that's all. I guess, he's kinda overweight, it could've been a heart attack. My bro and sis in law have already left the country so they coudn't perform CPR.
It's all so surreal. I can't believe it. I was crying in private. I can't cry publicly. And it was so windy that day, it's like I'm crying, facing the window and the wind is actually blowing my tears dry. Aaron is just 4 years old. I guess, God needed an angel in heaven. It was really so hard for Nora and Weng, the dad and Tita Tessie. Also for Normaine the sis. This little boy has touched our lives so much, he will live forever in our memory. But who would have thought he will remain a boy in our eyes forever? He just looks like sleeping in his coffin, I gave him Mickey Mouse disney Unli figurine "Japan" and his dad gave him toy rats. There were pingles offering and M&M's. His mom bought him a Mickey bike for his bday. Aaron really wanted to spend his bday in Dec than Jan, kinda like a premonition na din. The last time I saw him, was in our pilahan and he was smiling at me after the exercise, I wanted to kiss him but I didn't, I said to myself, later na lang, coz when you kiss this kid's cheeks, it's like kissing clouds. I also pointed out to him na kinalabit nia me on Kev's party as if to say"Hey, I'm here!" He was a diligent student, he always wants to come to our gakko. I kept saying to myself that I should forget him and remember my living starkids, kinda like the scene in "Alive" Somehow, it will take years to forget this kid. I kept waiting for him to come back to life but he didn't. I cried for 2 days privately and in the AM's burial day. We we're all very sad, even the sensei, esp. T. Joy. It was really a sad X-mas and sad b-day of my mom too.

Kev leaves

Kev left for London again and he'll be back on Summer, on my dad's b-day. On our road trip, we were nagkukulitan and had our "poo-poo" brit speak. And I am really gonna miss this boy! He had with him his Grow a puppy experiment and invisible sago project hehehe....
Of course I can't see Ken on Trinoma, as I was busy travelling. I never did like him as an F4. I like Jerry, then Vanness. I don't like Vic personality-wise but I like watching his soaps. Anyways Batanes is kinda boring with sign languages. They should've just made Ken speak English coz he can speak it like Vanness. Mira likes Ken.

Environmentalist for a day

In the Am, it was a busy day with my starkids for the higher lever, we were doin' the Natl brgy wide cleaning day. My complain was that plastics get stuck on the roads, it's so hard to dig it up. It made me think how people could've been more kinder and responsible to our environment, then we could have a better Phil. Well, just followin' Ac and kap's footsteps.
Then, I went home and grew a bloated princess and I let it shrink back. Stupid experiment anyway. Then, I dig a small pyramid and uncovered an ancient cat ala Bastet, 'guess I'm kinda like catwoman or a pharaoh's bride, hehehe.... I do have real Egyptian paintings at home. I do want to be mummified if that's possible hehehe. ;)
Then, I went tosee 6 cyclemind, hey they have some nice songs! I was waiting for "Magsaya" and "Prinsesa." They're not my fave band but I like some of their songs.:)

Kev's 10th monster bday party

After 3 yrs, Kev had his 1oth monster bday party at home. I invited his old classmates n sensei ( about 15) and only 3 didn't come. It was a party overflowing with food, friends, neighbors and relatives. I don't even know some of the guests, very,very distant relatives. I was with Mira, we were waiting for our princes. My prince had an oathtaking thingy. Inay was there and I'm so sad for her coz she's now a bit senile and she can't see us clearly na, due to old age. But she loves the divine mercy bracelet I gave her and the heart locket necklace with picture of her and Kev inside. I will cry because of my lola's condition but not because of One more chance movie. I'm glad Julie, Eunice, Normaine, Aaron, Kevin Paul, Harvey, Ricco and the rest were there. Kev's cake is a soccer theme inspired. The monsters will just stay for 2 weeks in RP. I am really gonna miss Kev. Sometimes, I wonder how my bro could have borne a kid like that that's so completely opposite of him. I really enjoy talking and being with Kev, he's my lucky charm. Even if Kev talks like a Harry Potter and he teases me about my princes ( esp when mira, our group were on the table viewing my photo album). He's my poo-poo vampire boy, hehehe. I love talking brit with him. Thank God I have him in my life. :)

One more chance (Barrio Fiesta)

The family ate at Barrio Fiesta. My dad wasn't there, he hates gatherings. The Agcaoilis are there. Kev is seated with mum. After that lunch, I though Kamandag tour is at our mall but Rich isn't there, just this kid Sam Concepcion, who has a nice voice for a kiddo. I just watched One more Chance of Bea and lloydie. I found out that it was a funny movie, I thought I will cry in the scenes but I didn't. I heard all my sensei cry a bucket for this lovestruck pic. I guess, I just wan't that desperate in love or I haven't had that really long, lasting relationship. I do fall in love but I'll never be desperate for one. :)

Kev's back home (a very busy day)

I realized it was such a busy day for me. In the Am, I attended a BPI party with free Mcdo lunch. Erik S was there but I left and didn't see him sing. I did an invisible growing sago experiment, then, I hopped in our van and went to fetch Kev in the airport. Kev's back from UK. I was with my fam, tito, tita and our driver. Wow, kev's all grown up but childish pa rin. He doesn't like Hot wheels anymore, he likes real cars and Pokemon trading cards. I believed I have seen a thousand Pokemon characters because of him. I gave him a mountain of Pokemon cards as it was very cheap to buy in RP and a bit expensive abroad. He's as tall as me now, still chubby and still asian color. He still speak with a brit slang like Harry P and I love it. I can now brit speak with him. :) He's a very nice boy, very funny and outgoing, a jetsetter as he has travelled many countries. I feel lucky when I am with him. Nephews are really angels sent by God. After socializing with Kev and my bro and sis in law, I was also typing my tests. Such a busy day, no time to even kiss my prince, hehehe...:)

Brgy n SK Election day

We voted early, my mom and I. We voted for Kapt as the chairman again. We voted for Tito Amang and Mr. Jumong Carbonell as one of the Kagawads. They won except for Mr. Jumong. We saw Kevin Paul's mom and she also voted for Mr. Jumong. I like voting, I just don't like to see my age there. hehehe. :)

UN Day '07

whew! Ths UN day is kinda taxing, looking for elf trucks, battle of the moms, ticket selling, etc. While looking for a truck, I saw a dead bat. I'm surprised to touch a bat, it's so soft like fur. I thought bats are supposed to be hard and rough.
I was so happy Ac agreed to be the UN judge. Mabuti pa cia, madaling mag-agree. We will really support him forever, mabait cia talaga.
AC was kinda late but he called to inform me. Kasi naman bayan muna bago puso, hehehe. I was already making my speech when he came, kinda like the scene from Jane Eyre of Anne Hathaway. He didn't dress up like a councilor, he looks like a starstruck contestant. :) After my speech of tickets, tracking and bats, he wanted to have a speech din so he did. Very environmentalist huh and full of gratitude. Kap also had a speech. AC had a bandaged hand, he said he had broken a bottle of coke (segway dahil commercial niya yung Coke buksan mo xmas truck) and I said that maybe it's bec he got jealous. AC sez he will never be, even with Wendy. hehehe. We had lots of pics, chika, beso beso and holding hands. I haven't kissed a guy in 7 mos! At least he's a nice guy, he sang a song " Ikaw lamang" with a nice Piola P voice. He can really join a Pinoy Idol and win it. He's got the looks, the brain, the voice. A young politician pa, he's got a great potential to be a Chiz Escudero someday. :) Still, I think someone is better than him in my heart. :(

It's time

Ya, it's really time. I did went to Billy's first major concert. I was just in the upper box, quite comfy with my binoculars, as I was nearsighted. But I saw a lot of Kapuso stars. I really like Billy's style. I wish lolo was a guest there too. All my starkids liked Billy. Billy's fam as there, he can really do the moves of gv and mj. The people were actually dancing, that made Billy so happy he cried. Then, I went home. A friend was texting me, who coudn't come to the gig. Christian B was also having a concert on the same day, I heard he was more jampacked. Anyways, it will be aired in GMA pala. :) Hay, he didn't sing 3 wishes.

zaido take two

Zaido actually films in our town. Of course, they had to promote it in our mall. So I went with starkid Tita Julie. All the zaidos are there. Even Paolo says he is the violet zaido. I'm Zaido baby blue girl. Turns out, dt wasn't there but I did enjoy seeing Lovi again. I think dt was recording a new song, or so he says. Nag trip na kang kani ni Tita Julie, she tooks pics of me in my Zaido baby blue pose. :)

Zaido

I was actually sipping cappuchino as it was a rainy day in a mall. Grace and her friend was in a zaido tour, so I went. Turns out, it was televised. I thought nobody would watch it anyway. Turns out, 3 of my starkids saw me on TV and it spread on our gakko. I achieve a bit of fame. I guess that was my 15 min of fame, hehehe. My neighbors saw me too and my OFW friend. I think the cameraman was really near me. Anyways, we saw the 3 zaidos- dt, aljur and marky. We saw Yda and the amazonas. Raymond G was the host. Lovi was there too. I got a Zaido blue mask. Of course, we watched it everyday. We hate Lastikman. :)

I've fallen for you

Avril died

Well, I guess snail season is over. Avril died. I'm gonna miss my snail. I remembered when Gary of Spongebob got sick and he still recovered. But where would I find a snail doctor? Anyways, I dunno why she died, I always feed her but it's also like having a kid. I mean, I'm so busy, I just feed her and left her to her own devices and exercise her at night. I'm sure with my own kiids, I'll be better. Anyways, I buried her in my backyard. Guess, she's just be a decomposer there with Foxy. I'm gonna get a bunch of new snails when snail season comes again.

A tribute to Sensei

I went to this Diwa seminar at Araneta. I was bored to death if not for Brother Bo and Pagsi. I love listening to Brother Bo Sanchez. I could listen to this guy all day. And Pagsi is such a funny old man, even the nuns jumped from their seats... hehehe. The other speakers were T. Queenie, boring Math and Mikaela, the 16 yr old College sum laude. I'm bored with her coz she thinks she's just reporting in class. I wish she just talked about her College experiences as a young grad at 16. Raymond L, Agot I, Isay A and others sang for everyone. Ok na din. I was kinda lonesome, my sensei had other priorities. Anyways, I met other sensei. Food wasn't good, I just ordered. I was hurrying up to go out of that coliseum, coz I got a party to attend, T. Joy's.

Lakas tama party

It was the "silver" bday of t. Joy. After going to my Araneta seminar, I went straight here at night. They say they will curse me if I don't go. No bf, no entry pa ang drama nila. I just bought a button, hehehe... I already gave T. Joy her fave signed cd of Piola. When I got there, tuns out that the whole sharksfin gang isn't there yet. I was kinda early. Hayun, ako ang nalasing at hindi sila. I texted them to help me but they we're kinda late to arrive. Ang lakas talaga ng tama. I still remember everything but that was like the first I can't really walk straight and I wanna sleep na talaga. :) Anyways, the boys drinking zone were separate from the girls zone. T. Joy had lots of friends but she had 11 siblings so clearing work is always done promptly. Expect Kuya Ramon to provide all the laughs, also the dog with eyebrows "poknat Monching."It was also kinda rainy. Anyways, we left before 12 midnight. I was with Liezl, Edz and Bha.

Annie

Finally, after it was cancelled due to the storm, we were able to watch this play. It stars Shirley F as Ms. Hannigan and Nicole/ Shasha of ST as Annie. We like this play (about orphans and talking flowers, bees, lizard) but the audio was worst. We can barely hear the actors' voices. There are lots of gakkos there, I even saw Jayjay and his tito. I was with my starkids Shammy, Euni, Jerome and Ron with his buddies. Kev and Jules failed to come. Shasha and Shirley are both good actress. Shirley is so beautiful. I agree with the comment on Shall we dance that she should be a bigger star than she is. After the play, we went malling, then we went home.

Timeless

I went to Piola's Timeless tour just for T. Joy. I will give the cd to her for her bday. Turns out, I didn't really enjoyed the jampacked tour and yet I don't really care. I just want a cd and a pic for T. Joy. The things I do for my friends! Good thing, I didn't fell asleep on PJ's songs. :) Hopefully, he's really timeless huh.

A luv Story

I went to see this movie with my friends Edz and Liezl. All I can remember is Angelica's boobs hanging all over the place. I don't really like the stars in the movie. We just watch it because we want to see any movie that's showing. I don't like the story. It's just finny Edz was crying and feelin' cold so I gave them my Dao Ming tzu sleeveless jacket. I already had a cold weather shirt on. Prior to this movie, the sharksfin gang ate at the hyper fudcourt. But we went on our separate ways and we went nga to this movie.
I remember going to Mla coz I thought lolo was gonna be there. And he wasn't. I was like, dazed, even though sanay na ako na wala nang naabutan sa show niya. You know that feeling. It's like asking a lot of questions and receiving no answers. Maybe I was just trying so hard in the end it doesn't really matter. It's not even a love story at all. ;)

Foxy died

After a month, Foxy died. I dunno why she died, it must be the stormy cold weather or I overfed the poor snail. I shoudn't have taken these snails to their natural habitat. I buried poor Foxy in my backyard. Anyways, Avril is still alive and still mischievous but shy. Just like Lawrence, it's previous owner. Avril always exercises whenever I have free time. I guess it's good I still have one pet left. :)

Cancelled meet with old buddies

So I was supposed to meet up and treat this old buddies of mine. But I cancelled out due to really bad weather. They actually got mad at me, they probably want me to weather the storm and just meet them. Friends can be so demanding! Either my friends are the jealous types or the demanding ones, others are come and go types or user friendly. I realized I only have a few close friends but lots of friends. They can't accept my reason and they don't wanna meet up again. What can I do, that's their choice. I need friends but they should need me too.

Our Kim day

I just went to see Kim with my starkid Julie as promised. She really loves her so I gave her the Cd to practice for our future programs. T. Ghen indianed us asual. It was still kinda stormy so I didn't go to see Sm and Toni. I saw there Normaine and her friends Baneg, sis and mom. I guess I'll just save my Kim pic and put it beside my gerger pic. I don't like the pair nowadays, I've outgrown them. :)

My Rush Hour b-day

It was my much awaited b-day and it was a holiday! Just coz it's stormy and storm's name is Dodong. The next storm will be Egay. They are all my neighbor's names, so funny. It was no class, no work for me. I haven't had a b-day holiday since the Dominicans declared it at UST. There were just a few of us at Gakko, even the starkids. It was a stormy rest day and I still had a handa for them. Euni gave me a weird jap bag. It's like a witch bag that can really hold a lot of things inside and it's just a small knapsack. My dad gave me a cp. Cyr gave me a handmade frame. My bro sent me some money. Kev sent me a card and some UK pics. It's always stormy on my b-day, I consider it the pouring of blessings to come. Yeah, the storm represent the many blessings I will receive later, hehehe. After all, I feel like all my misfortunes and unhappiness had already passed on and this is the age of a new dawn for me. The best is yet to come. I thank God for all the blessings He has given me and for all the storms I have weathered and survived as a pure 8. I thank him for the past life I can't remember and the present lifetime I am enjoying. I am still in the process of discovering, improving and reinventing myself. Completion is just a rush hour away :)